A Second Inspiration

 “Are not five sparrows sold for two copper coins? And not one of them is forgotten before God.” Luke‬ ‭12:6‬ 

     Yet another inspiration occurred.  This happened due to the fact that for the past month or so I had been flooding my husband’s messages with posts of dogs, cats, kittens, a horse and even a rabbit. Why? I missed the companionship and responsibility of farming. With all that has been going on, with all the stress and trials I am struggling to work through, I kept asking myself, ‘Why is this so hard for me to get through? Why can’t I get my emotions in check? Why I am having these outbursts?’ And it was then that I realized that I had been surrounded by animals my entire life.  God had used them to comfort and encourage me my entire growing up years. They were my furry little stress relief balls and now, for the first time in my life, I was experiencing rough waves without them. 

     I have Marm and Sheba but they can only take so much cuddles before starting to drown. Don’t get me wrong; Sheba has been a wonderful blessing.  She is attentive; she mews softly as if asking what is wrong or how can she help; her gentle purrs are like a healing balm and her cuddles help to melt away my troubles. She is an amazing cat. Marm tends to get overwhelmed and/ or dramatic with change or too much attention. He wants it when he wants it and that is that! He is darling though when he wants to be. 

     A coworker gave me the idea to foster. In this way, I would not have to commit long term; could still help out by saving a critter’s life and enjoy that animal companionship. It would be a win win situation.

     I reached out to a few shelters and rescues receiving a reply from just one. It was from a post regarding a little Siamese kitten as well as a mama and her four kittens. And it seemed to me that they were coming from the most dire of situations. An outdoor shelter in some of the worst Texas heater have experienced in June. The woman in charge connected me with a rescue with whom I filled out an application. Just a few days later, I was scheduled to pick up the mama and her four kittens. Thankfully, another rescue tagged the Siamese kitten. 

     Our time for pickup June 15th went from 8PM to 9:45PM to 10:45PM and, finally, to 11:32PM. My husband’s mom most graciously watched our daughter as we headed out to pick up our new wards. An hour later, we arrived home with five worn out kitties. Mama received her flea prevention and dewormer. The kittens received their first Dawn soap bath. With meds given and kittens dried off and settled, I washed up and went to bed, my sweet Sheba snuggled beside me. And thus began my fostering adventure. 

Through the Valleys

 "Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death." Psalm 23: 4

    Disappointment. Trauma. Pain. Loss. Grief.  These are but a scrape of words that describe what this year has been like for me.  My intent for this post and each post from henceforth is to process my thoughts, refresh my writing skills, bring healing to my heart, and bring hope and light to those who read this.

    I desire to be real yet I am uncertain how to proceed.  Will this detail be too much? Will that one be too little? Should I do this at all? These are a few of the thoughts that penetrate my thinking.  Yet I know that this is what I want to do, what I should do. I need to move forward with writing to process and to heal.  Once that has been attained, I will then have the ability to help others who are experiencing what I have gone through and felt. I will be able to extend compassion and empathy to the hurting heart.

    I am writing not to incite pity nor spite but to inspire hope.  To believe that there is a reason, that there is good that can come from every last tear and heartache.  I need to be able to look back, to review each moment in search of God's fingerprint, His presence in those utterly heart wrenching moments.  

    I will only write a smidgen today. And that, I think, will be in regards to the desk. What is so important about a desk?  I had passively been thinking about the possibility of moving my husband's computer into our tiny house.  With each reoccurring thought, I waved it away, persuading myself that I would be attempting an impossible goal. A little over a week ago, I entertained the idea of rearranging our kitchen/cat area to fit a desk. There is a convenient app which gleans from others a list of free things- one which I quite enjoy scrolling through. I had seen a few desks for free but they had already been claimed.  I had a flicker of inspiration. What if I found a desk for me to be able to write while my husband can also game on his computer? What if I could find some healing through writing? What if I could acquire a part time job writing?  The ideas rushed one right after the other. My first glimmer of hope had broken through.  

    One morning during my devotion time, I prayed and asked God for a desk. I continued on with my day as usual- make breakfast, tidy up, take care of the baby and so on. Later that afternoon, just ten to fifteen minutes after my husband arrived home from work, I scrolled through the app... again.  And right there  popped up a cute, espresso-colored desk for free. I immediately reached out and two hours later, we were driving back home with my new answer to prayer! My second glimmer of hope burst through.  A dream- my dream- to have a place to write and to type had come true.  

That's a Cat for You!

"And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works: Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching." Hebrews 10:24,25

I was working on my sketch yesterday afternoon and my cat Sandie was obviously making a statement.

 When I moved to a different area, she did too...right on top of it, even stretching out her paws so I couldn't even sketch there. 

I guess I've starved her for attention because after all I NEVER pet her. EVER. Who pets their cat? Especially not me!

Liberty Blessings Farm Website

"But thou shalt remember the LORD thy God: for it is he that giveth thee power to get wealth, that he may establish his covenant which he sware unto thy fathers, as it is this day." Deuteronomy 8:18


I have a new website for my goat herd!  Go check it out and let me know what you think!  http://libertyblessingsfarm.weebly.com/

Little Miss Ambitious

"As every man hath received the gift, even so minister the same one to another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God." 1 Peter 4:10

Keets did it again!

 Monday morning, she brought out her brood of eleven adorable chicks.

Belle Kidded!

"And the LORD came down upon mount Sinai, on the top of the mount: and the LORD called Moses up to the top of the mount; and Moses went up." Exodus 19:20


On Friday, I noticed Belle's udder had filled rather quickly.  I figured she would kid within three days. When I went out the next morning, I knew she was in labor. I had to run a few errands and attend a conference for my signing language class. I really hoped that she would wait for me!

I arrived home around 1PM and sat out in the barn with her. After about a half hour, I noticed that she was giving little pushes. 

 I quickly called some friends who wanted to see the birth. Shortly after they had arrived, Belle kidded two handsome bucks.

Short story: several days before Belle kidded, I had a dream that she had kidded.  Her first kid was all black with a little white. I checked and it was a boy! In my dream, I called him Elkanah.  After that, I greatly anticipated Belle's kids coming.  Sure enough, her first kid was all black with a little white.  And it was a boy!! I named him Elkanah which means God has created.

  I wanted to name the second boy Bullseye but no one seemed to get the reference so I prayed and asked the Lord what I should name him.  I was sitting out in the barn (again : P ) and the name Sinai popped up.  It means "out of the clay desert" which I thought was rather fitting for him but I also liked it because that is one of the places where God spoke to His people. Thus Belle's boys are Elkanah and Sinai. I think they're perfect. Don't you?

Cattle Show & Horses

"He causeth the grass to grow for the cattle, and herb for the service of man: that he may bring forth food out of the earth." Psalm 104:14

Had a fun day with friends  yesterday!

 Watched one of them show his calf...

 and took some photos of the horses in the nearby pasture.

 Afterwards, we headed to their aunt and uncles who own a horse rescue.  I was so excited to get to help feed the horses.  After lunch, we got to ride a pretty mare named Crimson.